Monday, November 7, 2011
These last two weeks have been very frustrating for me. My husband and I have travelled from Canada to Mesa , Arizona where we own a small property in a seniors resort. Due to my husband's heart condition and our ages we no longer can afford the travel insurance to be able to spend the winter where the weather is better for my arthritis and where we don't have to shovel snow, so the sale of the property is imminent. Cleaning up our property after the dessert dust storms has been a task, that has been done and we are ready for the sale.
My mind has constantly been on what I need to do in MFF, at every turn there was an obstacle in my way. When we reached our destination the internet connection was down that took two days to get back in order, then the phone wouldn't work and it was one thing after another. I did keep my cool and kept telling myself things would settle down soon, it wasn't the end of the world just take it as it comes and work through it. I did it!
Travelling so many miles was a great opportunity to say my self talk. As we travelled I was planing what I had to do to reach my goal. My Desire to reach it is strong and in my heart I know I will never quit trying to reach my goals. I know for the month that we are here working on MFF is not the ideal situation, there are so many interruptions. It just will take a little longer to get back on stream. This is where Patience comes in, I must admit that when someone passes by to visit I wish they didn't and then I think that through and realize how blessed we are that we have made so many great friends over the years we have spent here in the winters.
When I read and listened to Chapter Seven this morning I found it overwhelming, it was just too deep for me today, I think I'm just too tired to retain everything that I read. I thought I need to write how I feel, I know that the folks at the 30 day Mental Cleanse will understand. When we return home things will get back to normal and I will be on stream again.
Now what I have to work on is getting up the courage to talk when I'm listening in on the calls. I'm working on that one very hard.
Thanks to all for this safe place to share my feelings!
Sanford , Manitoba